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name: amy
i love: andrew
age: 15
mood: 
location: Florida
i brush my: blond brownish hair
tears fall from: green brownish blue eyes
lives for: God. friends. STARS! laughing. memories good/bad. soccer. rock. fam. love. cappichinos. mountain dew. dogs r us chicken wings. writing. zours. sour patch kids. mr teddy. care bears. happy bunny. taking pictures/ looking at pictures. sleeping. bright colors of green n hot pink. rain. frogs. care bears. pickles. 6 hour phone calls ha. tv shows dagrassi n boy meets world. sunsets. holding hands. aim/computer. reading. mountains. driving.
i listen to: shinedown. incubus. rasmus. new found glory. avril lavigne. linkin park. yellowcard. story of the year. heart. styx. smile empty soul. evanescence. dashboard confessional. blink 182. killers. godsmack. korn. modest mouse.avenged sevenfold. velvet revolver. trapt. the vines. franz ferdinand. soil. seether. sum 41. saliva. brand new. taking back sunday. cold. drowing pool. postal service. disturbed. foo fighters. sugarcult. 311. breaking benjamin. metallica. earshot. finch. lostprophets. muse. puddle of mudd. the hives. the von bondies. three days grace. favorite color. afi. a perfect circle. the starting line. simple plan. all american rejects. jimmy eat world. many many more..
speak to me: TimEisRunIngOuT6
send me a love letter: thatsoriginal01@yahoo.com
friends: brittany. kasey. kaleigh. nadya. lida. jon. john. kate. erica. whitney. ashley. lindsay
cell number: 960-9831
Well this may come as kind of a surprise.
I dont like you, and I dont care what you think about what I do. And most of all, I dont need your opinion. -reel big fish
I'll do what I feel like
Shinedown- Simple Man:
Well, Momma told me
When I was young
Sit beside me, my only son
And listen closely to what I say
And ff you do this, it'll help you some sunny day
Oh, take your time
Don't live too fast
Troubles will come
And they will pass
You'll find a woman, oh baby
And you'll find love
And don't forget that there is someone up above
And be a simple kind of man
Oh, be something you love and understand
Baby, be a simple kind of man
Oh, won't you do this for me, son, if you can
Forget your lust
For rich man's gold
All that you need now
Is in your soul
And you can do this, oh baby, if you try
All that I want for you, my son, is to be satisfied
And be a simple kind of man
Be something you love and understand
Baby, be a simple kind of man
Oh, be something you love and understand
Oh, don't you worry
You'll find yourself
Follow your heart
And nothing else
And you can do this, oh baby, if you try
All that I want for you my son, is to be satisfied
And be a simple kind of man
Oh, be something you love and understand
Baby, be a simple kind of man
Oh, won't you do this for me, son, if you can
Baby, be a simple kind of man
Be a simple man
Oh, be something you love and understand.
"Don't try to fix me.."
Icubus - Stellar:
Meet me in outerspace
We could spend the night, watch the earth come up
I've grown tired of that place, wont you come with me
We could start again
How do you do it, make me feel like I do
How do you do it, its better than I ever knew
Meet me in outerspace
I will hold you close, If your afraid of heights
I need you to see this place, It might be the only way
That I can show you how, it feels to be inside of you
How do you it, make me feel like I do
How do you do it, its better than I ever knew
How do you do it, make me feel like I do
Do oh oh oh oh oh
You are stellar
You are stellar
How do you it, make me feel like I do
How do you do it, its better than I ever knew
How do you do it, make me feel like I do
How do you do it, make me feel like I do, Yeah.
Rasmus - In the Shadows:
No sleep
No sleep untill I am done with finding the answer
Wont stop
Wont stop before I find a cure for this cancer
Sometimes
I feel I going down and so disconnected
Somehow
I know that I am haunted to be wanted
I been watching
I been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I been searching
I been living
For tomorrows all my life
In the shadows
In the shadows
They say
That i must learn to kill before i can feel safe
But I
I rather kill myself then turn into there slave
Sometimes
I feel that I should go and play with the thunder
Somehow
I just don't wanne stay and wait for a wonder
I been watching
I been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I been searching
I been living
For tomorrows all my life
Lately I been walking walking in circels, watching waiting for something
Feel me touch me feel me, come take me higher
I been watching
I been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I been searching
I been living
For tomorrows all my life
I been watching
I been waiting
I been searching
I been living for tomorrows
In the shadows
In the shadows
I been waiting
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Friday, July 02, 2004
HAPPY 65TH BIRTHDAY NANNY!!!!
A Woman and a Fork
There was a young woman who had been diagnosed with a terminal
illness
and had been given three months to live. So as she was getting her
things "in order," she contacted her pastor and had him come to her
house to discuss certain aspects of
her final wishes.
She told him which songs she wanted sung at the service, what
scriptures
she would like read, and what outfit she wanted to be buried in.
Everything was in order and the pastor was preparing to leave when
the
young woman suddenly remembered something very important to her.
"There's one more thing," she said excitedly.
"What' that?" came the pastor's reply.
"This is very important," the young woman continued. "I want to be
buried with a fork in my right hand."
The pastor stood looking at the young woman, not knowing quite what
to
say.
That surprises you, doesn't it?" the young woman asked. "Well, to be
honest, I'm puzzled by the request," said the pastor.
The young woman explained.. "My grandmother once told me this story,
and
from there on out, I have always done so. I have also, always tried
to
pass along its message to those I love and those who are in need of
encouragement.
In all my years of attending church socials and potluck dinners, I
always remember that when the dishes of the main course were being
cleared, someone would inevitably lean over and say, 'Keep your
fork.'
It was my favorite part because I knew that something better was
coming...like velvety chocolate cake or deep-dish apple pie.
Something
wonderful, and with substance!'
So, I just want people to see me there in that casket with a fork in
my
hand and I want them to wonder "What's with the fork?" Then I want
you
to tell them: "Keep your fork ..the best is yet to come."
The pastor's eyes welled up with tears of joy as he hugged the young
woman good-bye. He knew this would be one of the last times he would
see
her before her death. But he also knew that the young woman had a
better
grasp of heaven than he did. She had a better grasp of what heaven
would
be like than many people twice her age, with twice
as much experience and knowledge.
She KNEW that something better was coming.
At the funeral people were walking by the young woman's casket and
they
saw the pretty dress she was wearing and the fork placed in her right
hand. Over and over, the pastor heard the question "What's with the
fork?" And over and over he smiled.
During his message, the pastor told the people of the conversation he
had with the young woman shortly before she died. He also told them
about the fork and about what it symbolized to her. The pastor told
the
people how he could not stop thinking about the fork and told them
that
they probably would not be able to stop thinking about
it either.
He was right. So the next time you reach down for your fork, let it
remind you ever so gently, that the best is yet to come. Friends are
a
very rare jewel, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to
succeed. They lend an ear, they share a word of praise, and they
always
want to open their hearts to us. Show your friends how much
you care. Remember to always be there for them, even when you need
them
more. For you never know when it may be their time to "Keep your
fork."
Cherish the time you have, and the memories you share... being
friends
with someone is not an opportunity but a sweet responsibility.
Send this to everyone you consider a FRIEND even if it means sending
back to the person who sent it to you. AND KEEP YOUR FORK
Posted at 06:25 am by InThEsHaDoWs11
say whats on your mind
Thursday, July 01, 2004
three is a lucky number..
yea so i've wrote in here like three times today. but i guess no one could give a fuck cuz no one probably reads this shit i call my life. but any ways..todays been a tough one. nothing in my life right now seems like its my life. WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING TO MY LIFE! i can't seem to get it back the way it use to be. me n my mom are back to fighting. my dad who i thought believed everything i said and trusted me goes behind my back to jessica saying he thinks i smoke. i'm acting like i'm on drugs he says. losing friends n shit. but i guess i don't blame him it does seem that way huh dad. but guess what I DON'T SMOKE!i wish i had all my bff's back. i wish my mom and me talked like normal mothers and daughters did i wish i were just good enough for her the way i am not the way i use to be. i wish my dad didn't think so bad of me. i wish my life were not so complicated! why is this happening to me..and please don't talk about any of this to me. i don't need people thinkn im a freak depressed faker. cuz im not. i'm just lonely..all alone. yea thats what i've been trying to say the whole time. i'm all alone.
Posted at 09:00 pm by InThEsHaDoWs11
say whats on your mind
boys like you are a dime a dozen..
"i hope you CHOKE on every word you spoke when you were SCREAMING at me."
Posted at 06:20 pm by InThEsHaDoWs11
say whats on your mind
yeaa.. i love when my mom decides to be a bitch to me. comes home all yelln n shit saying to clean when i already did everything she told me to do. "i'm maken a list of chorse for you amy for the rest of the summer". yea fuck you too mom. "amy you look depressed, but no you cannot hang out with anyone today." yupp she drills into my head that she wants to be with me and talk but every word i hear out of her mouth is an order. or lecture. some relationship huh mom. try and get nanny mad at me KNOWING thats like the worst feeling for me...to have her disappointed in me. like NO i'm not good enough for anyone when i'm mad. "ohh amy's mad LETS GO OUT TO EAT, and amy you have to come even tho i know you are mad at all of us BUT I DON'T CARE!!!". why does this convo look soooooo familar..maybe this vacation will bring us together like all of the millions of other things i thought would....
Posted at 11:12 am by InThEsHaDoWs11
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yea well were leavin tomorrow night..but yesterday my dad was telln me how its like to drive threw the mountains and just him telln me about it made me sick. i don't know if i could handle it. being able to look down off the road to way below. yeaa my worst fear is HEIGHTS.. i cry on roller coaster going up that first hill..i don't know if i could take being up any higher. i'm really excited about going but this height thing is freakn me out. last night i dreamed our car went off the side of the road. YEAH im scared lol. n then my mom was telln me how were going to climb real high somewhere on the mountain n u can see like idk 6 states. NOT ME. i will just idk sit way off to the side. no way am i going over to some edge like that. fuck no. well i'll just sleep n the car and take care of that problem..and i probably won't write in here tomorrow soooooo talk to ya in like 8 days or soooo! much love
**can call my cell anytime while i'm gone..but idk if it will ring so leave a message or text me one and i will get back with you whenever i see it..**
Midtown - Give it up: awesome song
This silence kills the calm
Of the night
I force an anxious patience
Counting every beat and waiting for my turn to die
Give it up, Give it up
Don't fall for the same things
Give it up, Give it up
Don't fall for the mistakes that I've made
Don't turn away
I understand your ways
Won't give it up
It's not me you're waiting for
Alright, stop waiting
It's not me you're waiting for
This is where it ends
It's not me you're waiting for
It's time to let go, time to let go
And if you promise to forget
I'll try to find a way to make the same mistakes
And when
You become
All you've lost
Wandering the streets and searching for a place to die
Posted at 07:59 am by InThEsHaDoWs11
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Wednesday, June 30, 2004
woohoo happy early b-day nanny!
laaaaaa. well today went to waterford lakes with mommy jessica n nanny for nanny's EARLY birthday which is friday but we'll be gone..yea it was fun. got a new wallet :-) lol umm n these HUGE mens pj bottoms but i love them..and a new bathing suit. yea thats about all i've done today. going to the movies tonight wohoo. lattttter
Yellowcard - Gifts and Curses:
Mary belongs to the words of a song.
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before? I was sure.
(She is the one), but I have a purpose,
(she is the one), and I have to fight this,
(she is the one), a villian I can't knock down.
I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
still I will always fight on for you.
Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?
(She is the one), all that I wanted,
(she is the one), and I will be haunted,
(she is the one), this gift is my curse for now.
I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
Still I will always fight on for you. Fight on for you ...
Posted at 01:23 pm by InThEsHaDoWs11
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Tuesday, June 29, 2004
survey thing that i kinda stole from someones pro bc im bored too..
Name: Amy Lowry :-)
D0B: november 11th 1988
Sign: scorpio
Eyes: green blue and brown
Hair: blondish
Height: 5' 10
Living With: parents
Siblings: two sisters..jessica n kate
Pets: two cats
Speek another Language: well kinda lol GERMAN!
Style in a word: what?
Four Words that Describe you: umm...shy, athletic, nice, weird!
Biggest Fears: heights.. loosing someone close to me
Color: green (this color green) and hot pink
Number: 11
Food: garlic chicken wings from dogs r us YUM
Favorite Drink: mountain dew..water
Candy: zours or sour patch kids
Season: winter
Why?: its cold and it reminds me of up north where i wish i was
Months: november and december
Day: friday, saturday
Holidays: all of them!
T.V: dagrassi, boy meets world, 7th heaven, knock first, fuse..
Movie: umm tough one..idk home alone one and two!
Play: idk i've only been to like one Toxic Audio..i guess thats a play
Song: i love alot of them but top three...Shinedown - Simple Man...Rasmus - In the Shadows...and probably Incubus - Stellar OR Heart - Crazy on You
Sport: soccer
Sound: humm rain? idk
Smell: anything good..fabreeze! lol
Music Type: any kind of rock!
Band: i like alot of bands...
Been in a Mosh Pit: nope..
Thinking about: maybe i should get off the computer soon before my dad comes n and grounds me off it. lol
Eating: nothing right now
Drinking: nothing right now
Listening to: the sound of the tv in the other room and the air conditioning
Bestfriend(s): brittany andrew jessica kasey nadya kaleigh lida
Do your frends know you: um sometimes i think they don't
Who do you tell anything to: jessica and andrew but my friends too..
Who's the loudest: britt n kasey!
Who's the weirdest: jessica
Who's the shyest: myself
Who's the quietest: me
Who's the laziest: idk we all can be!
Who's your second family: pshh idk
Who do you think about when your not on-line: think about? huh
Who do you go to for advice: jessica
Who do you cry with: myself
Do you trust people easily: i trust ppl till they give me a reason not to
Loved someone so much it made you cry: lol well i don't see why you would cry unless they did something to hurt you so nooooo. never cried
Are you a virgin: why yes i am
Sexiest thing about the oppisite sex: idk
Ever have a member of the opposite sex in your room: yupp
Ever hada blind-date: nope
Have ever given/recieved head: definitely no
Whats the first thing you look for in the oppisite sex: eyes..
What accomplishment made your mom the proudest: wow idk shes always telln me how proud she is of me
What accomplishment are you most proud of: no clue..probably something from school or soccer or not smoking!
Where do you see yourself in 10 years: college maybe if im still in it that long gettn my MASTERS! lol..idk maybe somewhere up north or w/e idk? its 10 years away i bearly plan for the next day
Current GPA: like 3.5 - 3.7 idk.
Want to go to College: hell yea
What one: a good one maybe UCF..some university definitely.
What do you want to do: I HAVE NO IDEA! something fun and exciting maybe something outside not in some stupid office.
Do you think you'll get married: yeah i hope so
Why?: idk why not
How many kids do you want: dont know maybe 1 but probably none lol
Whats the best feeling in the world: happiness...what else
Whats the worst feeling in the world: sadness i guess
Whats your worst memory: theres many..
Do you think your good looking: sometimes...but not really
Do people tell you your good looking: i guess but who knows if their just trying to be nice..
What do you like most about your body: the fact that im not fat..
Least: well i have no boobs but what can you do about that?? maybe i wish i was darker..more tan
Ever attempted suicide: no..why would i be that stupid
If you could change one thing about your body it would be: gosh idk theres stuff but nothing i've really thought about before.
Whats the first thing you think about in the morning: "what time is it?"
Ever broken the law: no don't think
Police ever bring you home: no
Ever Stole something: don't think so
Get Detetion: yea
Suspended: no
Ever entered a contest of skill knowing that you were way better: no ? wtf lol
Painted nails or not: depends
Make-up or none: depends
Cute &mysterious or wild &sexy: ?
Dressy or casual: casual
Dark or blonde hair: blonde
Long or short hair: long
Hat or no hat: no hat
Fat or thin: thin
Hair up or down: depends
Jewlery or none: only a little
Tall or short: tall
Curly or Straight hair: straight
Pants or Skirt: pants
Tan or Fair: tan
Freckles or none: some
Pretty Indoors or Party girl: idfk wtf?
Shy or Outgoing: depends
you prefer
-- Pepsi or coke: neither gross!
-- McDonald's or Burger King: burger king
-- Single or group dates: both
-- Adidas or Nike: i dont wear either but nike
-- Lipton or Nestea: umm idk don't drink enough of both to decide
-- Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: CAPPUCCINO! hell yea good stuff
-- Boxers or briefs: boxers..?
do you
-- Smoke: nope
-- Cuss: yea i will admit i do but who doesn't
-- Sing well: HA no.
-- Take a shower everyday: mostly
-- Have a crush(es): on one guy :-D
-- Want to go to college: yes hasn't this question already been asked
-- Like school: yeah at times
-- Want to get married: yep..yea asked this one already
-- Type w/ your fingers keys: i think? what are your finger keys anyways?
-- Believe in yourself: pretty much yes
-- Get motion sickness: no
-- Think you're attractive: idk no
-- Think you're a health freak: no
-- Get along with your parents: mostly
-- Like thunderstorms: yes
-- Play an instrument: use to play clarinet lol
opposite sex
-- Best eye color? : bright blue..or lots of colors that change
-- Best hair color?: dont care
-- Short or long hair?: idk i like longer but not like girls hair more shaggy
-- Best height : taller than me
-- Best weight: bigger then me but not fat
-- Best articles of clothing: dont care
number of
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: none
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: like 5
-- Number of CDs that I own: about 10 lol WOO not enough space for those
-- Number of piercings: 2 in each ear
-- Number of tattoos: none but i wish i had one
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: couple..for soccer
-- Number of scars on my body: lots on my knees
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: yea like i could possibly say a number..LOTS OF STUFF
-- Number of bones broken/fractured: 0
-- Number of best friends: like 7
-- Number of questions on this: about a million gosh
Posted at 08:38 pm by InThEsHaDoWs11
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i'd love to be the one to disappoint you when i don't fall down..
wellllll. babysat today. well not really i just turned the tv on n told her to watch it all day haha. yea packed for vacation cuzzzz i like to get that crap out of the way. were leavn friday for NORTH CAROLINA! hell yea. mountains wohoo. i actually get to wear pants again :-)..and i don't know when im coming home for all you people asking..probably n a week 1/2 or so..umm then went to parish gym with my mom for about an hour. i love working out. then came home got dressed n went to the library with my sis while she did her work..but after looking at every single teen book i got one n left my sister n headed down to the high school where my mom was watchn my lil sis swim. yea came home ate. showered..n yea thats my day so far. not much..but typical.
but tomorrow should be fun..get together with nadya n ash maybe some others n hang out probably at my place. haven't seen them in awhile so it should be exciting..then going to the movies to see spiderman 2 with andrew :-)! yea well all i have to say for now....tho ya know what a journal is like what you write in for ur deepest thoughts and feelings not ur day. but yea i guess u can't share that stuff with the rest of the world..i guess this will do. tho im sure its EXTREMELY boring. i don't blame anyone for not reading this. geez i wouldn't read this.
Killers - Somebody Told Me
Breaking my back just to know your name
Seventeen tracks and I've had it with this game
I'm breaking my back just to know your name
But heaven ain't close in a place like this
Anything goes but don't blink you might miss
Cause heaven ain't close in a place like this
I said heaven ain't close in a place like this
Bring it back down, bring it back down tonight
Never thought I'd let a rumour ruin my moonlight
Well somebody told me
You had a boyfriend
Who looks like a girlfriend
That I had in February of last year
It's not confidential
I've got potential
Ready? Let's roll onto something new
Taking its toll and I'm leaving without you
Ready? Let's roll onto something new
But heaven ain't close in a place like this
Anything goes but don't blink you might miss
Cause heaven ain't close in a place like this
I said heaven ain't close in a place like this
Bring it back down, bring it back down tonight
Never thought I'd let a rumour ruin my moonlight
Well somebody told me
You had a boyfriend
Who looks like a girlfriend
That I had in February of last year
It's not confidential
I've got potential
A rushin', a rushin' around
Pace yourself from me
I said maybe baby please
But I just don't know now
Somebody told me
You had a boyfriend
Who looks like a girlfriend
That I had in February of last year
It's not confidential
I've got potential
A rushin', a rushin' around
Posted at 05:18 pm by InThEsHaDoWs11
say whats on your mind
Monday, June 28, 2004
someone REALLY needs to kick chris kanes ass..seriously.
went n saw White Chicks with my sis. it was funny. especially the part with the girl n the black guy n the car. HA. best part. tho the comercials (or however you spell that) were different??? strange but who the hell careeessss. yea but anyways we walk out of the movie afterwards n guess whos walkn out ahead of us FUCKN CHRIS KANE. see i really could of cared less at the time. but when i tried to get out those glass doors where u hand your ticket in at first he wouldn't let me out. lil fag. soo i tired to get around him and he took his shoulder and pushed me into the fn wall. errr i pretended i didnt' care cuz why should i let some dick head piss me off. geez i have better things to deal with. asshole. i hate him. n he wonders why everyone hates him. JERK!. yea soo i walked over to the gas station n got myself a cappicino..w/e the fuck you spell it...and now i'm all hyper! YAY! fuck chris! well g2g have a life! laterrr gatorss
Posted at 03:08 pm by InThEsHaDoWs11
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I've been watching..I've been waiting..
yeaaaa. i hate that i can't sleep in anymore. but o well why would you care. last night was fun. andrew came over..tired to watch some 13 ghost movie. yea i was gross n scary......so i turned it off lol. ummm went outside n brittany and lacey happen to be walkn by so they came over for a few. haaaaa lacey had a huge hole in her ass. haha. funny stuff. then idk some kid came and they left with him. yea then just hung with andrew..which was funnn of course. :-) yea well its only 10:30 or soo so i have nothing to write about yet. laterrrrrr.
Dashboard Confessional - Vindicated:
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated
{Chorus}
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me
So isoloated, so motivated
I am certain now that
{Chorus}
So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away (3x)
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away (4x)
{Chorus}
Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...
Posted at 07:27 am by InThEsHaDoWs11
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