gosh idk but i'm in such a bad mood right now. i'm so bored and its maken me mad!!! i want to leave this dull place called home. vacation was so much fun too bad i had to come home..there is nothing really to come home tooooo. i'm definitely moving back up there when i'm out of college. nice lil cabin in the mountains. it would just be wonderful!!!
anywho right? like anyone cares what i like.
ERR i'm so pissed off! idk
ha ohhhh moms party..well 12 women all yappin on n on is kinda amusing. i love to hear what they say about their kids and think to myself "GOSH YOU HAVE IT ALL WRONG". its funny to see moms talk about their kids like they really know them. or maybe its just my mom that doesn't know me n talks to people like she does?? idk just rambling on as usual. tomorrow i'll realize that i really wasn't that pissed off and it will all be forgoten. maybe i'll get to go to the gym tomorrow!! i really could use some excercise...definitely. HA. wow i thought i was gainning weight. but i stepped on the scale today n i lost two pounds! but i bet its muscle i'm loosing..which is worse than gainning fat! to me at least..yes anyways. what else is there for me to chat to myself about. OH yea thats what a journals for to talk to yourself about your problems..or secrets! right..yes i believe i'm right..soooooo whats the first problem on my list?? humm gosh. i already talk enough about my mom like i hate her or something..what else. friends..hum yea lost a few i believe. or i think i have. kinda bugs me like every day. whats else! summer is fucking boring. i have nothing to do my life is so dull. laying on my bed all day every day has become pretty lame i will admit. tho i usually enjoy alone time..i've become pretty use to it i guess..not going anywhere n all...HA i need to get out more. this is starting to sound pretty pathetic i bet? yes i think so. umm i hate that feeling you get when you miss someone. it really annoys the shit out of me. i wish it would go away! yes what else...i hate being pissed off too! lol i don't like being bitchy. cause i hate bitchy people so if im mean to you tell me n then idk don't talk to me i deserve it! alrighty moving on...can't tell secrets..so what are some other problems..cause talking about my life seems to be boring me so i bet its boring the rest of the population! wow as i look at this is..i sure have typed alot of shit on here! lmao. aaaaaaahhh. so uncool. wow i wish i was hangn with some friends right about now. i miss them!!! i feel like i've blown them off by not calling to hang out n stuff. what a bitch of me. definitely calling people soon. this is gettn old/pathetic. and this whole computer stuff is boring me too. gosh you know what i sit on here like the whole day right..n do nothing cause my internet is about off..i can't believe i'm even typing this. cause everytime you want to get on the internet you have to start the whole fn computer over again then go straight to it when everything loads up again..yea real cool. so usually i just sit here and stare at the screen..day dream n stuff. yea know?? if anyone knows what i'm talkn about haha. the tv idk i just don't have any daytime shows to watch soo no tv. my rooms cool if i'm dying of boredom..music doesn't help anymore. the pool umm not much for it. playing outside! ahh miss those good ol days when u came home from school and barely made your backpack in the front door before you were already back outside doing something. then u would beg mom n dad to let you stay out longer when dinner time came. thinkn to yourself "SCREW DINNER!" haha yes those exact words too...jk. but now i don't really have anyone to hang out with outside so i just kinda stand out there in the drive way wishing i was 10 again. it only makes me feel bad so why do it?! humm what else is there. food only helps for like 10 min. even that gets boring. no one really calls me. so no phone calls. well i think i've felt sorry for myself enough time to forget!!!!!!!
much love to people who read this shit. cause i'm sure your laughing by now. hope you had as much fun as i did typing it!